confused...wad to do???

2011-11-01T06:33:00.001-07:00

It's been a long long time..
Well, life has been awesome for me. Like what you guys always say, filled with ups and downs. Sometimes when we are overly happy, something bad will just come bombing your life. That's life.
Recently, I kept making myself improve and better. And naturally, I feel better about myself too. In another words, I feel more confident than before. Throughout these few months, I get to know alot of new friends, bought alot of branded stuff and found my old friends too. I'm glad life for me hasn't been really terrible. :)
Last but not least, I realized I had fall for this special someone. But then I know at the end of the day, I know i gotta let him go. Cause in other people's eyes, he's a bad boy. But in my eyes, he's special. <3
till then! Signing off,
JOSW, xx

2011-04-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

There's this question on my head that i would love to ask everyone, "Ever felt like you dont belong? "

Well, I did........

I can be surrounded by a sea of people and not knowing who i am. For example, whenever i go club and sitted there feeling sober, i will look at the people at the dancefloor. I would be wondering, Who am i actually? Why do i go to club so often that now im getting sick and tired of it alr. Tired of going home late. On the way home the next morning after clubbing, i will ask myself why had i changed so much. Probably because im legal now or just im escaping from reality.

Last night i went Powerhouse with my friends. I was feeling so depressed that i drank quite alot of alcohol and it kinda made me think negatively. Guess what, Someone puked on my whole body, so damnit lucky right. And when i smell that vomit smell on me, i went to the toilet to puke too. Cause the smell was overbearring. Like wtf. Lucky when i saw my friend in the toilet. Then when i look at myself in the mirror and asking myself this question:" who's this girl?". Seriously, the answer to myself was fuck you, fucking take off that mask. Then both me and my friend got out of the toilet and i started crying. My mind was filled wth my ex bf and myself. Embarrassing much by crying at powerhouse.

My other friends then came to find me, comfort me and talk things through my head. I guess my confidence level is really damn low. When i head back into the club with my head clear, i took off my covered blouse as i was wearing a sleeveless dress inside of it. People who know me would know that i dont wear sleeveless cause i have a pair of flabby arms. While dancing, i suddenly had the guts to go up to the platform to dance. I have no idea where my guts came from. &Fyi, i think i dont dance well.

In the past, i wouldnt give a damn to the clubbing nights ( ladies night/fri night/sat night). But now, whenever im home on either nights, i will feel very empty inside. Like i should be appearing at some club rather than home. Sigh~

Why am i like that now? Why do i feel like this? Why do i feel like i dont belong?

fuck it.

Thank you for those who were there for me last night at my most embarrassing moment of life.

2011-04-11T23:20:00.000-07:00

I will be blogging about my friend in this post. Or should i say, she used to be my friend. Her nickname is Joker. I may not know her for long, but i can say i treat my friends quite well. No matter how many things people say about her, i still stay neutral and be there for her when she need someone. However, she did something that i will never forgive her.

When i just had my breakup, my confidence level was really down, i couldnt get over my ex bf and move on with my life. Well, i went through quite alot of match making session. Haha! Until one day, she gave my number to a guy and i shall name him, Mr E. She said like know new friends and stuff. So he text me and we texted for about 2 months. But within these 2 months, his text was so little. What i know at that time through joker was that he's a shy person. And of course, i believe in what she said. Slowly, there were surprises by him. But those surprises were not given directly to me. He passed those flowers and presents to joker, then joker passed it to me. Amazingly, i think he's such a sweet person who manage to give me surprises. Cause it's very dfficult for people to surprise me as i always know what they're going to do. Within that 2months, i saw him about a couple of times but didnt really interact with him cause Joker said he's a shy person and i dont really talk to people if that person dont bother to talk to me first. At times, Joker will be telling me that he like me or interested in me just that he dont dare to take action. And i actually thought i was special so confidence increase to the max.. It did make me feel stronger and i did move on with my life. And then on new year's day, Joker told me that he has been mia for quite some time and suspect that he went to jail. I was really shocked. As he bought me present for christmas and i didnt receive it cause he asked joker to pass it to me. Roughly about 2-3 weeks later, Joker gave me a call to tell me about him in jail. Shocking enough. Then i went to meet Joker and she passed the present to me. That present was a compass and it has a letter in it.

The meaning of giving me a compass is that i will be able to find his heart, no matter where he is. And at the end of the letter, it stated " really had feelings for you" with his/her signature on it. His/her handwriting was atrocious. At that moment, i really think that that present came abit too late and i had tears on my eyes but i didnt cry. After receiving the present, i kept looking at it and had those regret feeling. A couple of times, i saw Mr E online fb. But i didnt ask him as Joker told me that maybe it's his brother that is using his acc. Foolishly, i believe in her words. Then later, me and joker were no longer friends. Dont ask why, cause i may take the whole night to explain it. I started thinking about this whole Mr E thing, isit for real or fake. After that i didnt think much or should i say, i couldnt be bothered with it anymore.

Before i went bkk on the 18thMarch, my flight is at 7am, and i had to head to the airport at bout 5plus. I decided not to sleep that night, so i went fb. Guess what, i saw Mr E uploading his friend's photo on fb. I clicked on his fb profile and saw a photo of his latest cny photo with that long hair and all. Exactly that guy that i saw that time. At that time, my mind was all about calling Joker and scold her for lying to me all these while. But then i think again, i couldnt be bothered with her anymore, even if i were to do that it would just ruin my holiday mood to BKK. Since that day, she proved me wrong like totally~

I wrote about the letter above that has his/her handwriting right.. was me suspecting that letter was written by Joker. Cause that handwriting was so atrocious until my name was written as ioame and his signature was ended with something like Adam. At this point of time, i can say Joker is really a "GOOD" friend by setting this up. I should have listened to what my friends said about this Mr E issue. But all along, i didnt like to judge people by what others tell me.

This is what i get in return for not judging and it totally destroyed my confidence.

Well done. Fuck you, Joker.

2011-04-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

This Post will be about death and my dog...

My dog's name is lucky, 6years old this year. &he's old alr. I still remembered that first day we brought him home. His fur was totally black. For your info, i have asthma and im not supposed to get close with pets with fur. But the doctor said my asthma is just minor. Well, so we got a dog. I didnt really dare to play with him, because he was small and active and back then, i didnt dare to get near dogs as im afraid they might bite me.

But My dog, Lucky was the only dog that made me accept him. For the first few years, i didnt really play or bathe for him or even bring him down for a walk. Until my breakup last year, he had been there for me without fail. I still had it clearly in my mind that on that night when i was crying myself to sleep, my dog was sleeping outside my room throughout the whole night until i find him outside my door after i wake up the next morning. I was shocked, really shocked. Then now, he's not only a dog but a great companion.. Just now, i saw him walking weirdly like dragging his leg. I was so scared until i wanna find him a vet now to cure him. But my godma said she'll bring him to the vet tmr. I can never forget this feeling of someone leaving you.

First was my dad, then my great grandmother, then my grandpa then my uncle. &lastly, my ex bf who breakup with me too. Great great impact. All of them were so closed to me. From young, i told myself i didnt wanna have any pets or even flowers. Because dont like that feeling. But i know in life, things happened and we have to learn to accept this. So what if we move on after they depart?

They'll still be deeply remembered in our heart. Occasionally when i mention about my dad or any of my loved ones that left me, there will still be tears in my eyes. As much as i need them, i think god needs them more than i do. I know one day my dog will leave me, but i hope it's not this soon. i still havent spend enough time with him, i need time to slowly accept the fact that everyoe will depart this world someday.

That is why i advise everyone to cherish the moment and treasure the people you love now. if not you may end up regretting someday. :(

2011-04-07T00:12:00.000-07:00

hectic hectic weeks. was talking to one of my girlfriend about me, 2years ago. 2 years ago, i never thought that my relationship would end so quickly, never thought that i would go club as often as now, never thought that i would study at psb and meet such good girlfriends, never thought that alot of things can happen in just this 2 years. Within this 2 years, there's obviously a change in me. firstly, it's about my relationship with my ex boyfriend. Everything was great. We planned our future. it was pictured so nicely when we imagined it together. However, there were more problems than we thought. I guess, in every relationship, every couple do plan their future together like getting married, having kids &etc. But i guess it's all fated and destiny. Secondly, I was a person who dislikes loud music that were so loud until it can destroy your eardrum and i hate places that are filled with people. So at that time, club was definitely not my cup of tea. but surprisingly, it's different now! :D Thirdly, when i was taking my o level 2 years ago, i planned to take up design courses. But now, im taking a business course in psb academy. much changes huh. :) Actually 2 years ago, i wasnt that close with my mom until the breakup recently. When i was so down and being left alone after the breakup, my mom was the first to be there to pull me up. And i realised that my mom is my heroine. I still remembered what she told me one morning. She said:"Dont say you're feel alone in this world, your daddy left us for so many years, i also didnt say lonely, dont you say you're lonely or alone." at that point of time, i felt that what she said was right. And problem is my ex boyfriend is not even my husband. but my dad is my mom's husband whom she love deeply. However, lately then i realised that not only after the breakup i feel lonely. This loneliness feeling has been haunting me for 13 years. &i guess no one will understand that. well, i guess alot of you have change alot within these 2 years too. go think about it and you'll realised it. :) till then. toodles!

2011-03-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

It had been half a year since the breakup. I had already forgot how does it feel like to fall in love. Ask my friends about it, they said time will prove it to you. Well, during this half a year, i detest seeing couples in the streets holding hands happily and sweetly. But today, i see couples doing the same thing, but i had another thinking about it. I kinda envy those who has boyfriends. How much their boyfriends dote one them, how sweet their relationships are. Seeing them now, reminds me so much about my past relationship. It has it's sweet and romantic times too. And then i realised, it's so difficult to meet someone whom you love, loves you back too. Because most of the time, it's always a one affair issue. For me, i have intuition. With one look, i know who's the right guy and who's not for me. At times.. when i feel lonely, i'll tell myself that it's okay to feel lonely. Because i know one day, there'll be a guy that will come to me and tell me, im here to save you from your loneliness. And i believe that guy will dote me like a princess and love me as much as i love him.. I guess, that day will happen...

2011-03-26T01:53:00.000-07:00

Each time when i see pretty girls, i'll feel super inferior.
Reason is i have a set of ugly teeth and no figure.
There was once i see a pretty girl, i went wow.
Fyi, Im not a lesbian okay. 100%straight girl.
I went wow it's because she's too perfect.
She didn't put on makeup, she was wearing her casual wear.
Her figure, complexion, face, teeth, nose, eyes, legs, arms..
Everything was perfect, even the way she speak.
Then i felt inferior. &i was thinking when can i be like her?
After quite some time, someone told me, not everybody's perfect.
I did some thinking, &realised what that someone said was true.
In fact, Everyone's special & God is always fair.
Maybe that perfect girl i saw, may seemed perfect on the surface.
Actually, it's the heart that matters.
When i went bkk last week, i read Show luo's book.
It was a well written and meaningful book.
& it somehow knock some senses out of me.
Everyone can be your teacher in life, the good and the bad ones.
When you meet good people, learn what's so good about them.
Then try to be like them be a good person.
When you meet bad people, learn what's bad about them and dont be like them..
But never never judge people from their outside.
It takes time to know someone well. :)
Actually after the breakup or even throughout my life,
im a person with a very low confidence.
anyone who gave me bad comments about me, i'll feel down and disappointed.
&i'll keep thinking:"Am i that bad or lousy?"
but then, i'll think back.. People give me bad comments, i must accept it.
The more the better, so i can improve myself in all ways.
For my haters, whatever they say will motivate me more to excel in my life.
im thankful to all of them. :D
So for now, although i may still have low confidence,
im still trying my best to build it up. :)

2011-03-22T01:43:00.000-07:00

When we were young, we will keep asking or even beg our parents to buy the things we want. But now, as we are growing, it became more and more difficult to put out our hand and ask. Cause we know working is tough esp for a single parent like my mother.
Often enough, i have people around me that thinks that im rich. However, i'll tell them that i look like one but im not. It may be because i keep spending money on shopping. One reason why i'll shop alot is because after the breakup, i realise shopping is the only cure to my heartbreak.
I may look rich in the outside but in actual fact, i dont feel rich in the inside. Cause in my heart, it is still broken.
Everytime when im sad, i would always wish that i could still be that young litle girl that can hug to my mummy and tell her, mummy, can you cure my broken heart..
I know i cant anymore. Cause im old enough to cure it on my own.
Just now, my mom was asking me to look for a bf. I told her, if you can be strong, brave and independent for all these years, so can i. I believe i can be back that strong and cheerful joanne like the past.
Love is full of sweetness, happiness and sorrows. I can accept love being that way. Just that i dont wanna get hurt anymore. Thinking of 25th july 2010, i cried for 13 hours &finding myself lose 4kg the next day was scary. I dont wish to let that day happen again. When it comes to love, i can be a very vulnerable and scary person. Cause when im in love with someone, i'll have high expectation of that relationship, be very obssessive and turn into a different person.
For now, i just wanna be alone. Im fine alone.

2010-12-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow, 31st dec will be my dad's 12 years death anniversary.
Every time i see my friend's dad treat them like princesses, i feel envy of them.
Everytime i go and stay over at my friend's place, they will always have a room by themselves.
whereas me, i dont.
im living in a hdb executive with 14 people living inside including me.
for the past 12 years, i only see my dad once a year.
Athough i only had 6 years of memories with him only, i dont quite remember much.
The memories were bits by bits.
I really miss him so much that till now, i still cry when i think of him.
Every year on this date, people countdown happily for a new year, a new begining.
instead, i dont know if i should be happy or sad.
I may be happy go lucky girl.
but there'll also be times where i'll feel sad, lonely, emo and depressed.
So much of wanting to leave this family, i cant do much.
My godpa pays for my school fees, he'll also be sponsoring me through university at brisbane.
At that time i was a lil girl after my dad passed on, my godpa asked me to stay with my grans.
which is also his home with his family and i did stayed at his home till now.
When i was younger, i always think that godpa was a hero.
He was someone who saved my family from hell.
He was someone who held out his hands to us, who offered help to us.
He was the one who gave us a shelter.
He was the one who guide me and taught me how to be a young lady.
But as i grow older, things changed. maybe because my perspective changed.
Living at this home, was torturing at times..
Having his help is equivalent to having to work for teoheng.
By saving my family, each quarrel, he'll bring up if it wasnt him, we would had been gone.
&now after knowing some idiotic fucking issue, made me felt that his teachings and guidance to life were all bullshits.
Now and then I realised that i no longer has that smile on my face with him around.
i can no longer see him like how i did when i was a young girl.
Im a young lady now, my thinking and doings are different when im younger.
The more they dont like it, the more i'll do it.
im like that. say me rebelious i dont care.
Cause this is what makes me, Joanne Josw.
The more you pull a kite, the more the string will break.
A hero does not vent his anger on his people when he's angry for idontknow what reason...

2010-12-27T23:46:00.000-08:00

Without me noticing, it has been 5 months ever since my breakup. During this 5 months, it has been horrible and yet happy. I had been thining alot.. Like the advantages and disadvantages of having a bf. I felt that one should differentiate or say what type of guy or bf they like. Cause it is all about the chemistry and feel about how you feel about the other guy after interacting with him. It's like we may know a person for 10 years and feel that you dont know that person at all, whereas we may know a person for 10 days and feel that you know that person for 10 years alr. It really happens on me. Like my PSB friends. Im thankful to those who're by my side after the breakup.. Such as my family, secondary school mates and psb friends. Without them, i wouldnt know how to survive or recover from this breakup. While viewing the past photos last night on fb, it was filled with many thoughts and feelings. One of it was, if i were to have another bf soon, will that guy let me go club with my girlfriends? :l Cause most of my girlfriend's bf doesnt allow them to go to club. Haha. hopefully the next one that comes along will give me freedom! :D

2010-10-26T00:29:00.000-07:00

Now i understand the reasons of why i dread going home these days.
This home is no longer the home that i felt it was in the past.
it was just a place for me to sleep, bathe and rest.
If life were to stay on like this until i get married, i may suffocate to death one day.
No one truly understands how stressful i am.
Friendship, Ex-bf, studies, family, work, money issues.
I put on a smile on my faces doesnt mean i have no problems.
doesnt mean im not stress. Doesnt mean im a happy girl.
I always have that smile is because i dont want any of the people who care about me to worry about me.
Im very stress. Really stress. Nobody understands.
but guess what, my mom and godmother just added somemore comments into my brain.
hoohaaa....
Studies more important or work?
so im their so called cheap labour?
I studied so hard, scored well for tests and exams for them to have some attention on me.
But what i got in return was a "OH OKAY".
It made me had that thought of giving up since i tried so hard and get "oh okay" as a reward.
I dont put that sad face everytime as i dont want people to think im still not over my ex bf and they'll start worrying about me.
I didnt want any of you to worry of me.
Apparently, im not over him yet.
i need more time.
i still miss him so much, so bloody much.
i fucking stupid to miss him, i know.
but i just cant help it.
i dont know if i should be a good person by always giving in or be a self centered person.
i really tried so hard.
until now, when i cry, i'll always have migraines.
I have to conclude that IM NOT OKAY..

2010-09-26T03:50:00.000-07:00

Some things are better left unsaid.
In life, every min and sec we make decisions.
Those decisions will always mark our future.
Like perhaps the other time my ex and i broke up was right.
When we were together, all of us only see the surface.
our relationship is like a glass..
each and everytime we quarrel, there'll be a scratch mark on it.
As time goes by, problems stacked on one another &there are more scratches.
Soon the glass broke. which is why our relationship ended.
in life, there's always an end.
but after an end, there's always a start.
God is fair to all of us.
No matter how tough or simple life could be, we'll still have to live.
The world wont stop revolving just beause of someone.
that's why i moved on.
i know im not making like a big progress on moving on.
but im proud enough to see that im already trying my best to move on.
2months ago, i was crying like hell, i was even crying in my dreams.
today marks the 2nd month of the broke up.
I may still think of it.
but i believe perhaps 4 months, 1 year, 2years later..
i'll meet someone better. &maybe he's my mr right.
The broke up was one of the obstacles i faced in life.
Although i still dont believe in love. &insist on being a nun in future.. LOL
but i still believe that there'll definitely be a guy who dream of me in his dreams,
who has me in his heart 24/7, who understands me, who accept the bad points of me.
Even if there isnt any guy out there who's like that,
i still got my family and im glad. :)

2010-08-25T13:45:00.000-07:00

I dont know why..
sometimes i'll still feel the loneliness inside me.
it's funny.
The other time my friend asked me what kind of guy im interested in.
In the past, i'll say handsome, love to sing, humorous, tall &more.
but guess what..
i've met him alr. but he broke my heart.
It's bad to have a bf who loves to sing.
cause the songs that he sang before made me think of him more.
&the songs that he recorded for me with his voice,
remind me of him much more.
I thought by deleting his songs, stop myself from listening to those songs,
i wont be hearing them.
but it still appeared on tv! now, i hate tv. LOL
&as for now, if someone asked me the question again..
i'll reply. i want a guy that loves me more than him, cares for me,
understanding, not sticky, decent and good guy &a guy that will always make me smile.
im much more demanding now. oh gosh.
but i guess no bfs for the meanwhile.
today marks the 1 month after the breakup.
it's damn fast! i believe i'll recover from this sadness soon. real soon.
goodbye.
god bless my heart &everyone.

2010-08-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

He made me let go & it's good.
Sometimes when im emo, i'll lose my eq. Like i'll do crazy stuffs.
I realised after this relationship, i may not have confidence in love and relationship.
but.. We humans sometimes need someone there and be with us.
At times, i'll feel like crying because i just feel lonely from love.
it's because when you'd too much love at one time, &when you suddenly lose it all,
you'll feel at lost & lonely.
I guess what eunice said was right.
im too free to think of him alr.
i must keep myself busy.
i should be drawing & planning for my drawing contest.
after 25th august, no more sadness.
i'll still look forward to a new love, but perhaps everything will be different alr.
Cause lesson learnt!
BIG BIG PLENTY OF THANKS TO PEOPLE WHO ACCOMPANIED ME THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE JOURNEY.
to me, im like a runner running on the track towards the finishing line.
the finishing line is the let go of the relationship. like totally let go.
While running, i've plenty of fantastic family members and friends cheering me not to give up, continue on moving on and letting go of this relationship.
&when i've finally reach the finishing line, it'll be the day i'll reform to a better and cheerful joanne. (:

2010-08-13T15:46:00.000-07:00

hello, everybody. Im back!

last night i went to the "galaxy of stars". That was the place where my ex bf danced at the dance floor and of course, memories came back.

Although it still did affect my mood abit, but i did made me reflect on alot of stuffs.

firstly, i should thank him for breaking my heart.

Cause he made me grow up. He made me think of things in another angle.

&not like how i used to think of things in the past.

Secondly, He made me think that all human's shouldn't place LOVE in their first position.

Because when one places love in the first position &when one loses love at the end,

they'll feel at loss.

Like how i felt in the first week of the breakup.

For now, my future, family, friends will be my first position.

They're the ones who're there for me when im going through the "down" part of my life.

Without them, i wouldn't have become so strong.

Im actually thankful to god that he made me realised alot of things at this point of time.

However, i still have no confidence in love, relationship and even in myself.

There's this weird thinking of me.

i felt disappointed in alot of things.

for example, in my heart, some people used to have very good impressions in my heart.

But..... just because of something or people change, they'd broken the image of them in my heart. this kind of feelings is weird.

&when something that you strongly believed in then... someone smashes the idea of it, that kind of weird feeling is cannot be described.

Like how i used to believe about my prince charming, my true love, my mr right, my long &lasting relationship, my happiness with my love one.

But just because of my recent breakup, i realised i no longer believed in stuffs like this anymore. & I dont know how come i'll feel this way. do you feel this way too?

however, when i saw the old couples dancing at the dance floor last night, i kept reflecting on stuff like.. in our generation, will there still be such guy? :\

& I even saw an old guy kissing his wife on her lips. How loving. :

Again the same question repeats on my head.

&that's a very good question. Haha.

Im a person with very low self esteem cause i own an ugly set of teeth, im fat and im short!

For now, i felt like im the only one who’s suffering and he’s not. It’s unfair! TOTALLY.

Each time i feel that way, my heart will sink. &i’ll turn into an emo freak.

DDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNNNNN IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTT!

FUCK LOVE, FUCK RELATIONSHIP, FUCK HIM WHO BROKE MY HEART.

2010-08-10T12:57:00.000-07:00

life has been terrible for me after my recent breakup.
felt like i can write a book from what i learnt after it.
After my recent breakup,
i felt like i no longer have confidence on love and relationship.
there's no more "happily-ever-after" & "forever" in my dictionary anymore.
I know i can live without him.
cause the world wont stop revolving just because of someone.
this is the 2nd-3rd week after the breakup.
feeling better even though i still miss him at times and will get affected somehow.
Everybody who loves me wants me to be strong and forget about him.
My reply to them was... i need just need more time.
Im sorry to those who believes in love at the moment.
But i have to tell you the truth is that,
there's no such thing as long lasting relationship at our age.
Perhaps some young girls out there may hate me after reading this.
but i dont care cause this is how i feel.
i'll be strong. i'll be smiling as happy as everyone else.
Im glad that im moving on alr.
sometimes when things get worse, it's best to let go.
The first few days of the breakup was the terrible days of 2010.
i kept crying like a baby.
every single min when i think of him, i'll get affected and cry!
i cried like a bitch.
so.. i realised that i had enough of cryings.
eventually, i dont feel like crying again.
For now, i just wanna stay single, no more falling in loves, being in a relationship.
hate it.
totally no confidence in love and relationship anymore.
as i felt so naive in the past.
i gave in all my efforts and love into this relationship.
so a word of advise to girls out there,
be prepared for the worst for everything not only for relationship and love.
I know im very bad. but i dont care. cause this is how i feel.

2010-07-12T22:33:00.000-07:00

It's soooooooo irritating to be in this bloody family.
1 side of the family talking about the other side.
both are my family, my loved ones.
how can they be like this JUST because of business?
IF they even dare, they can just tell them straight.
why must they like tell me all those shits?
im sick and tired of listening to all their rantings!
they sound like im at fault! wtf.
Fucking irritating. I dont understand why they wanna tell me.
it's not as if i'll tell my mom.
they say they're disappointed in her. but im more disappointed in them.
they're a changed person.
everything i do, nobody realises.
now they wanna let them china woman take over,
if my mom wanna give up the place. wtf!
how can they! wtf. cant believe they will say that out of their mouth.
he can still say dont know how to gan en.
wtf, please.... what gan en.
if you wanna help, then dont talk about gan en please.
now they're talking about my relationship with my bf.
i'd enough!! I REALLY HAD ENOUGH!
i dont understand the connections between the whole issue and my relationship.
wtf~ it's so stressful to be in this family!
I HATE THE FUCKING STRESS

2010-04-20T22:23:00.000-07:00

I will never be in their plan ever again.

2010-04-13T23:06:00.000-07:00

Design test tmr. im really in deep shit. :(

2010-04-06T00:43:00.000-07:00

How to train your dragon~

tmr tmr tmr.

there's quite a no. of stuffs happening tmr~

morning, we'll go to dad dad's place and pray him.

then~~~

work.

then at night, going to e!hub to watch how to train your dragon. (:

but but the sad part is that there's no 3d anymore. SAD~~~

i think it's because clash of the titans also 3d.

perhaps they didnt have enough 3d classes. LOL!

but am looking forward to watching that movie.

so i've got to sleep early tonight.

but at this time, isit early? LOL!

gtg alr. nights nights people! :D

have a good day tmr~

2010-04-05T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hi people!! :D

Safari is causing me plenty of problems!

It takes me to relaunch the safari for 3 times in order to

successfully post all the photos that was taken today. Sigh~

tmr is MONDAY again~~ how tiring.

which means i've to go to work again!

okay, anw today i went to have lunch with family at safra.

then went to meet xun and yun.

head to suntec to go to kirbie's shop.

which is xun &yun's cousin. (:

after felyn arrive, 4 of us went to watch clash of the titans 3d.

actually it's kind of like waste of our money.

cause it's not really very 3D just the subtitle.

so i suggest if anyone watching this movie,

you can save your money by watching 2d. (:

It is a great movie.

something like percy jackson movie.

went home after that. (:

meet up soon peeps! :D

gtg alr cause it's 2am now~~

bye bye~~~

byebye~~~

2010-03-28T15:29:00.000-07:00

Am back from tw like since monday. (:

life has been busy!

so busy until i have got no time to post photos that was taken at tw.

currently i dont have any school to go. (:

cause im wating for my design test at nafa.

hopefully i can get into nafa. (:

if not i've to rest for another year.

ytd went out with bf to get a gift for bro's 21st.

walked around tamp1. and saw 1 prada bag. damn nice~

it's about 1000+. felt like getting it but it's too expensive. (:

then after everything, went to bro's birthday party.

the whole thing was good. only that it's pretty hot there. LOL~

after leaving the chalet, went to watch when in rome.

nice show. worth watching. (:

gtg alr. wanna see my tw photos, go to my fb to see it. (:

bye~~

2010-03-17T00:15:00.000-07:00

HATE THE FEELING SO MUCH~
promises are meant to be broken.
in the first place, i didnt really believe in this phrase but...
after countless of problems, i felt that it is for real.
i wanted to be a better gf to him.
but.. i cant.
i am leaving for tw on thursday.
but it seemed that im like the last person in his heart.
i dont wanna blog anymore.

DAMN IT!!!!

2010-03-12T00:14:00.000-08:00

My dreams were broken just like that by moe.

I think i had given up my dream as a designer alr.

im sick and tired of false hopes.

Interviews, trying so hard for nothing, putting in so much effort & in return, i get nothing.

If i'd try to work harder for my results,

i can simply get into any course i want.

im just the cause of everything.

dreams are always dreams.

it is like a dream is forever a dream.

once you're awake, everything will be gone~

I sound like im a very emo person now.

but i dont care.

i just felt that im totally disappointed in myself.

2010-03-09T23:55:00.000-08:00

Life has been okay for me lately.

Sometimes bad, sometimes good.

sigh~ it seemed that 2010 is quite a bad year for me.

like super unlucky.

I think i'd disappoint quite a number of people.

like my bf, yun and all. Sigh~

anw, i just got back from bintan with bf and his friends.

&soon enough, i'll be flying to tw next week. :(

it's like i cant bear to leave sg.

but i hope i can go shop till i drop at tw.

you wont want to imagine how bad was the toilet in Indonesia.

i swear, you'll treasure sg toilet more after coming back from there. (:

i think i'll just stop here.

cause im tired and i dont wanna continue anymore. :(

goodbye~

i'll post when i'm free, i swear!

a photo taken at bintan~

2010-02-13T20:51:00.000-08:00

Cny eve~

im still alive people~ LOL!

i'd been very very busy!

work. home. work. :(

tired until i wanna take a break~

but im going overseas with my b and his friend on early march

and tw on 19th. (:

YAY~~~ im so happy.

Used my bonus money on my hair, face and nails.

Did the essential hair mask~

IT WAS GREAT!

everyone must try it.

im so happy with my hair now. (:

this coming tuesday will be my anni with b. (:

1st year~ so happy. tmr's cny with Valentine's day~

How cool and sad at the same time~

but never mind~ (: money is coming~ LOL!

I HATE ENGINEERING!

2010-01-27T22:11:00.000-08:00

&I hate appealing for courses. :(

As it causes me to be even busier with those appealing and stuff.

But.. through this course i know another girl,

an o level student who passes by my blog just because of this course &

She was posted to nyp too. & i find that she's quite a friendly girl. (:

LOL.

okay, back to the topic.

If appealing doesn't work, nafa will be the only choice. :(

i believe god loves me.

&also i believe that god won't treat me unfairly.

may god bless me to get into the course i want.. :(

no matter it is nyp/tp/sp. :(

BUT NOT ENGINEERING OR IT.

When i got my posting results, out of the sudden i hate MOE.

anyhow post me to the other poly.

still say im eligible for the courses.

bullshit! Electronics, computer &communications was not even in my 12 choices.

screw them.

2010-01-27T07:07:00.000-08:00

DAMN IT.

i got into nanyang poly, electronics, computer and communications engineering! :(

hate it hate it hate it.

2010-01-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

Happy 18th belated birthday to felyn! :D

sorry for not updating.

cause im currently working at Teoheng.

have got my bonus today!

so glad that i quit my office job the other time. (:

Working at teoheng may be tiring and stressful.

but time passes fast.

&i get straight cash after working.

&&i tend to save more as i've very little time to go out and shop.

sometimes working at teoheng can make me feel very stressful until i feel like breaking down.

but eveytime when someone understands me, i'll feel better.

im glad that my hard work paid off.

&&please anyone who's reading this,

please please come to teoheng on 16th feb-22nd feb.

Cause i'll be working straight except 16th feb.

cause 16th feb is my 1st year anniversary with my bf. (:

anw, who wants to make an enquiry can make a call to 64402794.

for booking 63456513.

thank you very much for your support.

i'll love you more if you come! :D

2010-01-20T06:20:00.000-08:00

16th feb is coming real soon!! :D

hooray~

im getting more and more disappointed in myself.

wanna know why?

cause i think i neglect my friends alot.

sorry peeps.

i'll find time, i promise!

2010-01-17T17:12:00.000-08:00

Im still wondering if is my art that bad?

what has gotten into those angmohs brain?

sigh~~~~~~

the most disappointing thing that happened on me in 2010.

2010-01-09T14:37:00.000-08:00

Out with YUN later~~~

2010-01-07T10:37:00.000-08:00

I think girls should stop going to those sentosa countdown parties.

i hope you girls had watched the news,

about a girl being molested on stage by 4 guys.

it is freaking disgusting.

&the worst thing is that no one helped her.

everyone was just snapping photos and taking videos of her.

can you believe it?

i think the molesters are really disgusting.

but the girl looked abit drunk.

you can actually read the news at yahoo or stomp.

when i looked at the news, i was shocked.

but but .. after looking at singaporean's comments,

i find that, if i were there, i may not help too.

cause.. i think the whole situation is messy.

if her friends were there, why aren't they helping her?

& if we ourselves go up and bash those guys up,

those guys will probably bash us back.

so ..

the best solution is not to go such places.

if you wanna go, go with a group of guy and girl friends.

so they can take care of you.

as easy as that.

2010-01-06T23:28:00.000-08:00

11th january 2009, will be the released of the olevel results.

which is my very last day in springfield.

no more uniforms.

i'd given a thought to my future already.

&after what yun asked me.

i planned &give a thought to it.

finally, i'd made up my decision.

i'd decided to follow my heart and my ambition.

If i pass, i hope i could either get into advertising or graphic or fashion.

OR if i fail, i will continue half work half study.

or maybe take up some sewing course or fashion course outside.

or also maybe, i'll continue to work until i manage to study something i really like.

a quote from my cousin's website.

“If you like what you do, not only you will success, but you will enjoy life.”

which i think it's absolutely right.

an advise for everyone before choosing your course,

think carefully and pick the course you really like.

goodbye. thanks for reading.

or maybe, that's no one reading.

bye good day.

2010-01-05T23:04:00.000-08:00

After like months &months of hard work,

next week may be the results of it.

im afraid and excited.

wondering if i'll do well for my olevels.

wondering if any of my relatives will compare me with my cousin.

because my cousin is so much smarter than me.

wondering what course should i choose to study.

wondering how much i got for my art.

wondering if i'll cry or jump for joy on that day.

wondering if i'll get to go the course i want.

wondering if my close friends and i will still remain close after that day.

i've got to admit.

im a person who's afraid of having no friends beside me.

im afraid of boredom.

im afraid of loneliness.

omg... i sound so unlike me.

i think i need someone to make me positive again.

after gazillions of advice from everyone,

i've no idea which course i wanna choose.

sigh~ just have to wait till results day.

god bless me lots lots.

2010-01-01T23:50:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D

New year = new hopes = new chances

Worked half day at teoheng.

then went to my bf's place which is also teoheng's big boss's house.

2009 was indeed a good year for me.

o level, bf, friendship, family, studies &more.

hope that 2010 will also be a good year for me. (:

bye people! (: hope you enjoyed your day ytd.

&&people who reads my blog, kindly leave a tag.

cause my tagboard is rotting alr.

thankyou for your cooperation.

will love you more if you do so. LOL!

FINALLY I DID SOMETHING FOR MYSELF

2009-12-30T12:26:00.000-08:00

I finally did what i was supposed to do long ago.

I am happy and guilty at the same time.

Happy because i can finally get rid of the 8.30-5.30 work hrs.

guilty because i felt that i broke my promise.

I told my supervisor that i'll continue working till 26feb.

but but my godfather asked me to help out at teoheng.

Cause next week my cousins will be returning to school alr.

&there's no one to help out.

so.. i guess, that's one of the reason.

Erm.. Actually i dont know if this has happen to anyone of you,

each time i get my pay, i'll spend it off damn fast. LOL!

& I think if i work at teoheng, i'll save more money.

One is because i get my pay after a day has ended.

&&this way, i'll control myself more.

I hope my decision didnt go to waste.

My last wish for 2009 is GIVE ME MORE MONEY SO I CAN SHOP FOR CNY STUFF.

LOL! what a weird wish.

but i guess 2010 will be a good year.

cause cny will be coming real soon.

&that also mean money coming into my bank acc.

&&ON 16TH FEB, it'll be my first year anni with my bf. (:

&&&about dont know when, i'll have a baby nephew! :D

&&&&ON 19TH AUG, i'll turn 18!

last but not least, i'll have a new school! :D

THE END~~

going to nette's place to bake cupcakes later. (:

21st Dec till 27th Dec

2009-12-27T22:28:00.000-08:00

21st Dec,

work.

22nd Dec,

didn't go to work was having headache.

then went to katong to meet with family.

After that, went to vivo.

That was my first time sitting on a mercedes.

&that was also my first time going to a movie premiere.

anw, if i quit or didnt go to work w/o telling my supervisor,

i've to pay the company 2weeks of my pay! crazy~

but i think i'd decided to carry on working

as i think it's better to work then to quit and pay them money.

watched treasure hunter which was quite a horrible movie. LOL!

no offence to those jay's fans or lin zhi ling's fan.

23rd Dec,

took half day from work. as on 22nd i went to watch jay chou.

&returned home late.

After work, went to do mani and pedi with aunt carol.

my nails are pretty now.

24th Dec,

went to work half day again.

cause gotta go for last min shopping and stuff.

&at night went to cousin's place. (:

look at clarinda. SHE'S SOOOOOOOOO CUTE.

only that she's moving at that moment.

that's why she's blur in the photo.

25th dec, CHRISTMAS DAY! :D

had lunch with b's mom, bro and her friend at holiday inn hotel.

which is at orchard. the buffet was great,

only that i was afraid i think im not high class enough.

After Lunch, went for a hair cut and treatment at icon.

i have a good hair now. LOL! (:

&then right after that, went to xun's place for steamboat. (:

took pictures with yun, xun and yun's sisters.

then off i go home to pack my clothing.

as im staying over at my cousin's place.

and it's also because next day there will be a wedding going on.

took jonus[nette's bf]'s van.

sent b home and then off we head to mich's place.

slept at 2 plus AM.

26th Dec,

Afternoon.

night. was playing monopoly on itouch.

Night. Taken with clarinda. She's so cute right.

woke up at 6 plus AM.

make up and got dressed.

i find that weddings are cool yet tiring.

cause there're so many traditions that i didn't know at all.

went to got the bride and i think all the tiring was worth.

after every thing, went to century with godmother.

As she wanna get her hair cut done.

&then off we went to makeup.

After makeup, got home and dressed up again.

then off we went to orchard for the dinner.

the dinner was great.

when i saw my cousin walking through the door,

singing "nothing's gonna change my love for you",

i totally felt happy for them. Almost teared out. LOL!

but i still continued throwing the petals on them.

After the dinner, had a family photo taken.

this time, it was really the whole family. (:

Then in the first place, we intended to go and catch a movie.

BUT! alvin and the chipmunks was left with 2 tix.

&we've got 7 persons. So we went home.

Once i got home, i was so tired that i can barely walk.

but i still got bathe lah. LOL!

&i think i should end here.

as it's getting late for me and i've got to work tmr.

GOD BLESS ME BIG TIME.

more pics on facebook.

2009-12-22T15:59:00.000-08:00

Hello people!

didnt work today cause of my swollen eyes and migraine.

Will post pictures below as promised.

Tonight i will get to go for the jay chou's movie premiere at vivo, gold class.

My first time watching movie at gold class.

I think it will be great.

will get to see jay and lin zhi ling also. (:

double happiness. (:

Hope by then my swollen eyes gets better.

&also i'll rmb to take plenty of photos of them if i can. (:

anw, last sat i went to see 3goodmen concert.

i was shocked when they sing jolin's song. LOL!

Although they're middle aged men,

but i still think their singing talents are still there. (:

It was quite a nice concert.

it was also my first time sitting the front second row from the stage.

Happy & contented.

so enjoy looking at my photos. bye! :D

2009-12-21T14:14:00.000-08:00

people people!
hi~ hope you guys had a nice day today.
cause i did not had one.
woke up this morning and decided to wear a new top that i'd bought during the mng sale.
then i asked my maid to iron it.
BUT she refused! she asked me to wear others then tmr then wear. wtf.
then i decided to iron it myself.
after that, i went to work.
THEN! i rmbed that i forgot to bring my waterbottle.
which means i dont have water to drink for the 8half hrs at work.
what a day~
i actually told my colleague about me wanting to quit.
she was so kind hearted that she asks if i need her to tell my head to terminate me.
how i wished i said yes.
but i didn't, cause i will have a bad reputation if i quit.
sigh~ & they're handing me the report tmr.
im afraid that i make so many mistakes.
but im also afraid that i will let them down.
at the same time, i think they think highly of me.
which i think they shouldn't.
cause im just 17 man. :(
i shouldnt face all these shits on my holiday.
shouldnt have follow what people ask me to do even if it's good for me. :(

FULL OF REGRETS! :(

2009-12-18T01:18:00.000-08:00

Im back people! :D

Pictures will be updated soon.

Went to cruise on wed, back today.

with S$150, i bought a couple of stuff from f21 and zara.

Satisfied.

Went to 313 today.

IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME.

I've no other good word to choose but only that f word.

ESP. THE F21!!! 4 storeys~ faint.

when i was there, i kept taking all the clothes that i want.

BUT when i saw the queue at the dressing room,

i put back some stuff. LOL!

wanna get soooooooo many things there.

at least i managed to get some.

Gonna get somemore from there after my 2nd pay next week. :D

Wanna get that Oxford heels from fep.

but bf said that i had been buying boots,

heels and others ever since a month ago.

I think i need yun to record her voice saying "Do you really need that?"

Yun is so much of help when it comes to shopping. (:

&i bought a heels from cotton on just now.

which i had 30% off from the original price.

Felt so thankful towards bf's friend for it.

I have got the money to buy,

but i need the discount cause i think it's really useful to save some money. (:

IM SOOOOOOOOO GOD DAMN TIRED NOW PEOPLE!

have got to go to bed soon!

as im meeting YUN TMR! :D

&&concert after that with b &family. (:

gtg. BYE!

love you guys!

till then.

WORK

2009-12-14T21:20:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a long time since i'd post photo up here.

Life has been busy for me.

Everyday is just work work &work.

But that is also equals to the amount of money in my bank.

im glad that im able to meet my buddies on the 19th.

i felt really bad for postponing the date all the time.

im really sorry buddies!

anw, after the blog post that i'd blog this afternoon in office,

i went to check out on my email.

&my supervisor mailed me.

like complimenting me for doing quite well and for helping out.

sigh~ im having a dilemma now.

i think i should take leave more often.

or maybe i can take half day leave. (:

how smart. (:

but but i've got plenty of wishes and tasks not accomplished yet.

sigh~ work tmr and CRUISE ON WED.

which is shopping! YAY~

gotta go alr. till then peeps! :D

2009-12-14T15:10:00.000-08:00

sometimes i feel like qutting this boring job & do something i like. my next holiday im soooooooo not gonna work office job anymore! like what bf said im not a '6am' person. if i dont have this job, i'll be so much happy but at the same time stress. cause of money issues. but but i miss my buddies so much. this job equals to no time for everyone including bf. :(

what should i do? 2k is really too much. :(

B's competition.

2009-12-01T22:25:00.000-08:00

2009-11-29T19:35:00.000-08:00

Guess what~

i was on tv for 1sec last night. LOL!!!

As last night was my bf's singing competition which is on sheng siong prog uh.

He sang well although he had a bad throat last night.

But last night was sort of like a bad yet good night.

good because my bf scored the highest score among the 2 rounds.

bad because of some arguments with bf(some misunderstanding).

sigh~ dont wanna talk about it anymore.

didn't even had a chance to take photo with him man.

but at last he came to look for me at work with his normal clothings uh.

i was wishing to take a photo with him and his clothings.

but nah.. he got it out of him.

so sad right.. nevermind uh.

just pray hard that he enters into the finals then i'll take plenty of photo with him.

but at last still took photo with him at my house. LOL.

look at his hair~ &i look so ugly in this photo.

tmr will be monday AGAIN!

everyday is like 8:30AM-5:30PM.

do you know how bored can it be?

i finally understand how OL's life is.

everytime when im given something to do, i'll do it damn fast.

then.. i'll be left with nothing to do.

sometimes i stare into space for 1hr, still nothing to do.

should i quit the job and get back to teoheng?

at least teo heng, i can like sometimes work sometimes dont work.

like flexible working days.

working in office is like going to school.

if i have a choice within office and school, i would rather go to school.

sometimes while working, i'll doze off without realising.

sigh~ or should i work until jan? sigh~

give me give me some advice people! :(

monday= monday blues~

&periods came today. Still wondering if i should go to work tmr. hmmm~

okay till then. bye!

2009-11-17T23:50:00.000-08:00

Working on monday at one of the companies located at changi as temp admin.

How great~ after my cruise, i'll have to go to work alr.

but just think of the pay, &everything will be fine.

actually this is my first time working as an office lady.

cant imagine~ but working till 26th feb only. (:

hopefully this 2 months plus, will be a very fruitful months.

wish me luck people! (:

2009-11-15T18:50:00.000-08:00

I'm going on a cruise to kl on wed again!

some may question me with isnt it boring or blah

but.. i can never get enough of shopping.

each time i enter those brands that i love, i'll feel relaxed and happy.

cause.. it's been a very long time since i'd shopped this much ever since the starting of O's.

you'll never know how happy i am at that point of time.

soooooo gonna get that pig skin high heels from POA.

it's so pretty and it's asking me to bring it home. LOL!

i'm gonna go there one more time to get all the pretty pretty clothes back.

bahahahahahahah!

back that requires ALOT of money!

i think my mom will supply me some.

gotta go! stay tuned for the next update!

goodbye~

2009-11-13T17:10:00.000-08:00

Our Journey Begins On 16th feb '09...

For those who don't know, actually he's my childhood friend.

he's really a very superbly good bf.

&he's fat. always thinking highly of himself.

sings well. records love songs for me.

sing love song on the phone for me.

always bear with my bad tempers.

always giving in to me.

always help me eat finish my leftover food(that's why he's fat)

&more.. (: i do love him alot.

&&he'll be appearing on tv, the sheng siong competition on 28th nov.

if you wish to see him, go watch your tv at home on i repeat,

28th nov, 8pm.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i'm back from cruise alr! :D

bought a dress for my cousin's wedding.

i think i'm getting that pig skin high heels from POA. LOL!

it's freaking nice!

&&i dont have enough time to shop lah. damnit damnit damnit.

if only i've got a chance to go there for holiday. &shop till i drop.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

goodbye. it's friday the 13th everyone!

2009-11-07T23:40:00.000-08:00

I got a few piece of good news.

-gonna be one of the jiemei for my cousin's wedding.

-I JUST BOUGHT OMNIA PRO THIS EVENING

-OMNIA PRO'S MSG IS CONVERSATION TYPE.

-maybe going cruise this wed. a short getaway.

-going shopping real soon.

-i'm gonna get rich soon.

-itouch had arrived since last friday.

-maybe going back to thailand at the end of the year.

okay.. it's not a few~ LOL.

i'm really leading a happy life now. are you? (:

cause O's are going to be officially over by WED, 11/11.

gonna have pretty pretty nails like soon.

should i have my hair coloured?

Last but not least,

I'm happy. (:

2009-11-05T17:00:00.000-08:00

I felt relieved like finally.

cause ytd was the last day for all the major papers.

although next week still got chinese and combined science mcq uh.

but to me, i'm starting to have my break alr.

Studied for so many months, like finally.

actually it's not that scary though. LOL.

Things may have change, but friends will still remains as friends.

As memories will be kept in the heart.

i hope when all of us leave spf,

we'll be able to keep in contact with one another.

like maybe 1/2 a year meet up 1 time also can.

Surprise Chalet. (:

excluding izzat, photo of 5c girls.

Halloween'09

My most beloved bf. JCYX. (:

2009-07-21T18:38:00.000-07:00

Little updates.

I won't be active in this blog for the next 4 months.

which is the end of my Olvls.

cause everyday, i always return home late due to the study programme.

but not to worry, i'll come and post if i've time.

like lil lil updates of what have i been up to lately. (:

esp. after the opening of new ktv rooms, i'd been more tired.

tired until i didn't have enough sleeps lately.

&that causes me to have terrible headaches lately.

I didn't attend school today just because of the headache.

went to visit a doc.

he took my blood pressure(which is my first time),

shine a torchlight to my eyes.

&just told me that he'll give me some medicine to stop the pain.

So he gave me painkillers with gastric pain medicine.

cause the painkillers will cause me to have gastric pain.

until now, i still feel like vomiting and slight headache.

of course i'm not pregnant. LOL. i guess it's low blood again.

tmr's olevel mt listening. hope i'll score well.

till then until i post again. Goodbye!

2009-07-21T18:31:00.000-07:00

Cousin Clara's 21st!

Ending with a photo of me.

Last but not least,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CLARA COUSIN!

2009-07-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

So Little Time...

It was a busy week.

That's why i didn't blog that often anymore.

Time do flies.

Another 6/7weeks, it'll be the starting of PRELIMS.

Which means less than 2 months. Such a short period of time.

That's why i need to study hard alr. i mean real hard.

&i'll have lil time to blog.

monday school end at 2.20, reach home at 3plus, tuition.

tues- chinese O level, tuition.

wed- tuition.

thurs- rest.

fri- oral practice and work.

sat- work again.

&after i get home, i feel very tired alr. so i need to rest.

So i apologise for not blogging so often.

felt so tired after whole day of shopping at marina and suntec.

GOODBYE!

2009-07-05T20:18:00.000-07:00

Ask Me If I'm Confident Of "O" levels?

i'll answer you ...

sooooooooooo NOT!

2009-06-24T23:43:00.000-07:00

RED ALERT TO MY FATS!!!

What to do.. School holiday~

the things that are in my tummy now are unhealthy stuff.

fattening stuff. LOL. OILS!

anw, this whole week, i'd been working working &working.

tired. backache. headache.

must control my diet alr! No more fattening food.

say no to meat. say no to oily fried food.

2009-06-18T01:17:00.000-07:00

Busy.

Kai.

Xiang.

okay, that was both xiang &kai's performance.

if you've got time, just click play &listen.

it's really worth listening.

cause they sang real good.

i was extremely busy these days.

working. tuition. anni.

i can't even go out with xun, yun &their cousin tmr.

cause of both tuition and work.

see how busy i am?

i dont even have time to upload both their video and photos.

no more blogshopping. cause i want blackberry soon.

real soon. so goodbye people! work tmr. work again the day after tmr.

sigh... what can i say? |:

2009-06-14T23:24:00.000-07:00

Belcanto Recital.

This noon, the 7 of us went to attend Belcanto Recital.

to catch Kai & Xiang's performance.

they sang so super well, i must say.

The kids who performed were cute too.

i'll post the photos of them &video tmr.

cause my home's internet connection sucks.

&this post is short because tmr i've got plans from morning till night.

so... end here. bye~

2009-06-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

It's officially Out.

One of my biggest secret is out.

my family members know about it alr.

i felt relieved. LOL. i don't have to hide it anymore.

like go anywhere, i'm not scared of seeing any familiar faces anymore.

LOL. &the best thing is, they approved. (:

in fact, not that my whole family knows it.

just my godfamily. who are closer to me.

relieved, happy, bliss.

thank god.

2009-06-06T00:54:00.000-07:00

PEOPLE PEOPLE!!

"NEW MOON" TRAILER! :D it looks interesting to me. LOL

'New Moon' Teaser Trailer @ Yahoo! Video

2009-06-05T18:54:00.000-07:00

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

this song made me reflect on myself, my dreams.

2009-06-05T18:18:00.000-07:00

Mixture Of Feelings.

hi there, people. It's friday again..

Usually for me, i'll be half happy half unhappy.

unhappy because i've to work every sat. i repeat "EVERY".

&as for happy, it's because one week has past.

This week's time really passed very slowly,

cause i always had this voice in my head saying..

"other teenage/kid can sleep at home as long as they want..

but as for me, no.. i've to wake up and go to school as normal"

this makes me feel so super low.

but for this week's lessons, i was supposed to attend like 4 days of lessons.

but i attended 3 days only.

&for some subject, i didn't even bother to go.

which is ENGLISH.

&next monday, going to singapore poly for that one day experience thingy.

this event was named ONE DAY POLY EXPERIENCE.

but guess what.. We've to wear school uni there. Sickening.

&another bad news i'd heard is that we've to attend english lessons first.

then go to dhoby ghaut ourselves! DAMN.

when i heard it, i had the urge to shout "WHAT!"

Is my school that poor until we don't have any money to like book a bus.

c'mon....... make me so don't feel like going.

the worst thing is if i dont attend that event,

i've to attend the extra lessons. shit.. i'm in a dilemma.. LOL.

anw, i'd trimmed my hair. fringe and the hair length.

I love my current hair to the max.

I even feel like cutting it shorter. LOL

okay, bye.

2009-06-04T23:25:00.000-07:00

BlackBerry.

After reading XiaXue's blog,

it makes me even more feel like buying it.

cause i always wanted a blackberry.

just because it's expensive, so i decided to buy until i'd saved enough.

but i guess that day will never come.

how i wish, my mom strikes a 4D &she askes me if i wanna get anything. LOL.

Last but not least,

I'm Sooooooooooo Gonna Get A BlackBerry For Sure!

you're my sunshine. my only sunshine :D HAHA

2009-05-28T16:33:00.000-07:00

1Month=1Week.

Holidays are here!

unfortunately, i'm only left with one week to rest.

cause.. for the rest of the holiday,

i'll be spending my time for school's extra lesson &studying.

during the one week rest, i'll also study but not as much.

i'll try to work doubly hard.

cause i think my teacher think highly of me,

as they wrote it in the comments in my report card.

it also states that i've to devote more time in my studies.

okay, for the sake of my future, it's okay to sacrifice it. (:

Olvl student mah..

i wanna go on a holiday~~~~~

go to other far far away countries..

BUT..

H1N1 stopped me. OLVL stopped me.

by thinking of it, makes me drool. ):

sighhh....

after O's, it'll just be shopping, working, overseas and outing w.friends.

the end. goodbye.

starting of social studies "Intensive" study in 4days time~

2009-05-22T18:54:00.000-07:00

SWEATS! HATE THAT!

Today's weather 26degree celsius to 34degrees celsius!

hate it. hate it. hate it.

can't even on that freaking aircon.

Alr feeling so fucked up due to the hot weather.

still i can't sleep peacefully due to the shoutings.

damn it damn it damn it.

May God bless relatives in heaven.

2009-05-20T19:20:00.000-07:00

The Flintstones.

Watched at boomerang just now.

The feeling of watching it again after so many years was totally different.

It was not as entertaining as it was in the past anymore.

But i still think that the lil girl in the show is cute.

anw, today's weather is still as hot as ever.

It's as if like you're stucked in an oven for a very long time.

Usually for days like this, i'll take a cab home.

i hate taking bus filled with my juniors.

They'll LOL like nobody's business, talk like as if they owned the bus.

having to wear the same uniform, it's the worst thing.

that's why i chose to go home and change before meeting someone after school.

So.. i got an expected L1R4 marks. which was bad but expected. LOL.

Olevel chinese is just 11days away. I'm so not ready.

Read chinese, Speak more chinese, Study chinese.

Bye! school tmr again~

2009-05-19T20:00:00.000-07:00

EQ.

My EQ has increased!

(1)Someone stated that i'd language disorder.

-my day wasn't affected by that lil lil pea-

(2)That photo taking lady shouted at me asking me to stand on a almost spoiled chair.

-such a nuisance. I told her that the chair was spoiled-

-want me to fall down badly isit.-

This year's phototaking was sorta a different one.

change in venue, photo taking style.

whatever it is, i hope the photos come out pretty.

now, i wanna talk about my EX-buddy.

Wanna know why i added the EX.

i think i don't wanna even care about her anymore.

She's totally a changed person.

She used to be sucha good buddy.

but.. because of something as small as singapore happened,

she started to lost connection with us.

i just wanna let her know that..

what she's doing now are just shits.

what she told me before in life, were just shits.

The friendship between her &me, were just shit to her.

If it wasn't a shit to her, she would have contacted us.

When she had no girlfriends, she chose to come back for us.

I once thought you really regretted for not studying last year.

But.. It turned out to be all shits.

Thanks for all the shits. I appreciated it.

Cause, you made me look clearly of you.

Don't come back &tell me that you feel regret in future.

Cause i'll just say, this was what you choose in the past.

no use regretting it anymore. Goodbye my EXbuddy.

lesson learned:"this is purely luck."

2009-05-18T19:35:00.000-07:00

Tired. Sick.

Got back my papers.

i passed 3 subs. well, i was expecting 2.

This time round, i can only comment that it's purely by luck.

I didn't know that i'll pass my maths paper2 when i fail my paper1.

At least i had a B3 for art. LOL. what more can i ask for right. (:

this is enough, seriously.

anyway, i think i'm sick now.

i kept sneezing until my nose almost drop off from my face,

my head weighs like ten thousand millions of kg.

Was crapping with yun in school as usual,

love to crap with her. Cause she's always making me smile

&laugh like nobody's business in school.

okay, i think this is it, i'm gonna really work hard from now on.

BYE.

2009-05-17T23:18:00.000-07:00

Sleepless Night.

this could be the night.

i'd never felt so afraid before in my whole life.

i wanna say that,

i'll work hard for prelims.

more hardworking than anyone could imagine.

bye.

2009-05-15T01:03:00.000-07:00

My cute lil cousin.

xun &yun.

me.

Off-Day.

Started my day by clearing my shelf.

&then.. met up with xun and yun.

went to sing K.

We love karaoke. LOL.

Spent one hour looking at a singer.

Kept looking with our super eyes.

had dinner-supper at 800+, roti prata.

Ate until i feel like puking.

&i'm tired now.

good night.

wordy post.

2009-05-13T20:43:00.000-07:00

Last Paper.

Well, i end my mid year paper at 5PM today.

Subject, Art.

which i'd been waiting for this day for a very long time.

Cause it's the end of my mid-year.

But... it's nothing to be happy about because..

tmr i'm getting back my Combined Science paper.

can you imagine~ i studied so hard.

but what i get in return was just some shit marks.

Isit because i'm not working hard enough?

or this isn't enough for O's. i wondered.

Probably for this time's mid-year, i'll just pass 2 subjects.

how dumb can i be?

Stayed up late last night just to finish art prep.

during art exam today, i thought i would messed up the whole thing.

but it was only part of it. which is the human's nose!

This is my first time painting human's face, fyi.

I thought chinese was the only hope to at least pass 3 subs.

but.. CHINESE PAPER2 was difficult.

i'd never done any questions like those before.

If my english fail also, i'll be even more pathetic.

means i'm left with art. LOL!

never mind. i believe i can do it for prelims.

i'll work very hard for prelims.

all ears,eyes and attention on teachers!

tmr is like SCIENCE REVISION DAY.

lessons until 12.30PM. isit that the school has got nothing to do or what.

First, they plan the exam plans like anyhow.

I'm tired very tired. &i think i deserve two days of break.

but tmr same school routine starting again. Damn~

i'm so tired until i could sleep for 18hours i tell you. LOL.

goodbye~ signing off with a headache.

Love[16]

2009-05-09T23:17:00.000-07:00

Cramps=Painful.

hello people. i'm here to blog again.

periods came again. cramps until i almost faint.

lucky i didn't work till 2am.

anw, had tuition today. Chinese.

i'm still wondering what i should write to my mother for mothers' day.

during work, i always wondered alot of matters.

when the customers on the line,

they kept asking the same question &I kept repeating the same thing.

problem lies with me or them?

The same thing repeats with another customer.

like come on, think through your brains can you?

Sometimes they're really testing my patience.

I even felt like screaming at them through the phone.

if i spoke in a fucked up tone,

my godmother will scold me for sure.

&guess what..

she said that my work attitude was bad.

saying i'm lazy and stuff..... ABSURD!

she didn't even know a thing.

after that china lady come, i've to do 2 persons job.

might as well don't employ her right..

I told her about the china lady. but she said maybe because she missed it.

like obviously there's litter on the floor.

the more i comment, the more my cramps are hurting me.

so the very last sentence before i end,

I don't enjoy working there,

i don't smile like how i used to be at work anymore.

me hearts you plenty plenty.

2009-05-06T22:20:00.000-07:00

my niece! our little princess. how cute~

History. Chinese.

I always hope that i could pass my combined humanities.

like at least a C6. i don't mind a 7 too.

but history was definitely the most difficult category for me to get that.

I did study. &I sat there keep thinking and thinking.

until i hope i could squeeze my brain out into juice.

It's okay.. Don't care. to prepare for prelims,

i'll study one subject each week.

Chinese paper one was okay..

only that checking the dictionary is one troublesome thing.

cause i usually ask my tutor the words that i don't know how to write.

after school.. went to eat at coffeeshop with yun.

the weather was super hot and the food was so not okay.

went back to school for art.. we got stopped by one security guard.

cause need to take temperature before getting in. mafan only...

drew one artpiece and sleep. cannot tahan sial.

went for tuition at 4plus. then reached home at 9plus.

tmr probably going to bedok reservoir with godparents for a run.

cause tmr no exam=no school.

&tuition for physics paper on friday.

okay. stop here good bye.

2009-05-04T21:48:00.000-07:00

Home Sweet Home.

Is it still as sweet as ever?

it is a definite no, if you asked me.

I'm studying yet they can be outside shouting and quarreling.

fancy a 30year old quarreling with a 11year old.

How am i supposed to study in this kind of environment?

i'd thought about it for a long time.

is this place really suitable for me to study.

Had sort of a cold war with mum.

i was feeling terrible ever since ytd till now.

It was a terrible feeling that no one can understand.

It's like you're flying a kite. the more you're pulling the string, the more it'll break.

i guess this is what had happened to my mother and i.

the feeling of you giving up your mother is the lousiest feeling i had felt on earth.

I didn't want to give up on her. but i felt that, that was the best choice.

I'm not going to let her doings affect my studies.

like what yun said, i'm doing all these all for myself. i'm working hard for myself.

I'll never ever turn into another gambler like her! NEVER!

i don't understand why people will think like if your mother is a gambler,

you as her daughter will turn out to be like her in future.

Come on.. I've my on dreams that i wanna pursue.

Why are they linking me and my mother up. i don't understand.

I don't wish to be some typical housewife staying at home looking after kids.

i wanna be a woman that can balance my job and family well.

I don't want my future family to end up like now i'm facing.

how i wish my family could be like the past again..

filled with happiness.

once again.. I cried terribly w/o caring how the others look at me....

2009-04-27T18:34:00.000-07:00

UNLUCKY ME..

i'm here to update again..

wanna let you guys out there to know how unlucky i can be these days.

I lost the 60Bucks i work last saturday. ):

it realised it was gone forever when i'm on my way to TampOne in sunday.

I was prepared to even spend that money at there..

How sad right.. ):

Then today before i'm going to school,

i looked high and low for my spects.

I CAN'T FIND IT. DAMN~

How unlucky right.. this is still not the most unlucky one yet.

while i was on my way to school this morning,

i kept thinking of where the spects could be.

then.. i reached school and i intended on buying drinks.

but as i walk towards the drink stall,

IT'S CLOSED ALR! ): SUPER UNLUCKY. DAMN~

I'd thought about of what yun told me about the lost of money.

&i think what she'd said is quite true. so... i don't feel sad anymore.

until when i was thinking if i'd that 60bucks, i can buy one dress from topshop.

I felt so super sad &disappointed in myself.

if i was more careful, i wouldn't have lost that money.

So not fated to be my money lah. Sigh~

60bucks! ):

you suck.

liar liar pants on fire.

you should know who you are.

2009-04-22T18:34:00.000-07:00

Absent!

time flies and i'm alr two weeks away from my mid year's.

yet i was still absent from school today. LOL.

basically, i'd been unwell for 5days.

only that i didn't go and visit a doc.

because i don't see a need to.

It's probably just some trendy flu that most people had nowadays.

anw, life has been monotonous.

repeating the same old thing each day.

wake up, school, sp, home, tuition, sleep.

is this what an Olevel student's life should have? \:

I rmb-ed how i used to slack last year.

this year, i've tuition almost everyday!

my chinese is so lousy until i've got chinese tuitions now.

i'm working doubly hard right now..

&tmr is my mid-year science practical exams.

Excited &Frightened.

cause i've no idea how i good i can score.

&it is my first time having sci prac exam.

i'm only good at physics prac &not chem.

so so so so so dead.

but i've got to give myself some confidence.

&my shift will be the last shift.

means can late wake up and no need to be detain.

how good. LOL.

no matter what, wish me luck.

so i've got to go alr. goodbye people!

16.

2009-04-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

BUSY BUSY!

basically it's due to my studies. (:

SP everyday.

but i don't go subjects like SS, Maths &Chinese.

cause it's totally waste of my time.

went to watch knowing ytd. nice to me. (:

school today again.

no longer doing canvas alr. Digital instead.

i was working super hard to get use to colouring in digital.

i'm just a beginner for colouring in digital.

After school went to tm for "Handsome suit". nice nice.

tampOne after movie.

like the second time..

&i'm back home alr.

Later having tuition then go and fetch BaiLaoPa.

then fetch BaiLaoMa.

then go singing session at somewhere in sg.

so... goodbye! :D

2009-04-12T20:48:00.000-07:00

So-Not-My-Day!

I started my unlucky day with...

(1)Alarm didn't ring. So i woke up late.

(2)Shouldn't have went to the flea market.

My impression of flea market had gone way down alr.

(3)the flight of stairs. i think it's about ten trillions of stairs.

(4)those "bitchy" looks from those owners.

(5)got nothing from there.

(6)was sweating like hell.

(7)leg hurts something like aching.

(8)on mrt, all the maids on earth suck.

their hair kept poking my hands.

(9)Saw one shoe, but don't have my size.

(10)All the shops i wanna go into, ALL CLOSE. Damn~

last but not least,

my mom said something that i hated the most.

i seriously dont deserve all those shits! I DONT!

but there're some stuff i'm happy today. (:

I bought a sleeveless dress which i love it to the max.

found the nike shoes i wanted to buy like ten zillion years ago. LOL!

&at last, i enjoyed our(yun, xun &me) dinner at eighteen chefs. (:

The end. Goodbye.

god bless me with powerful legs.

so that i can pass my 2.4 tmr. LOL!

DONT SUPPORT CAMPUS SUPERSTAR'S CAI AIJIA.

i've my reasons for saying this.

2009-04-10T19:58:00.000-07:00

Good Friday!

Me:I thought every Good friday will rain?

why isn't it raining?

Aunt:3pm.

3pm.... STARTED RAINING CATS AND DOGS.

is it coincidence? LOL!

Was supposed to head town with xun and yun.

But it was raining. so we postponed it to sunday.

had swensens for lunch.

&i was so angry with swensen's service.

service was lousy.

i waited for my crayfish pasta for 30-45 mins.

my stomach was so hungry until i almost faint.

anw, i went to TampOne just now.

IT WAS SUPER CROWDED i must say..

BUT! almost all of my favourite brands are there..

if i'm free one day, i'll go queue to get into the uniqlo.

did i spell it right?hmmmmm... \:

&shopped around tm.

&came home with a bag of watsons plastic bag.

bought those necessary stuff. (:

Tmr.. work again. if anyone get to pass by there,

feel free to visit me. Cause it can be boring at times.

&sunday! awaits! excited sey.. :D

goodbye people.

2009-04-07T20:40:00.000-07:00

Pursue A Career or Pursue A Dream?

Have you ever wondered if in future,

will you pursue a career or pursue a dream?

I knew i don't suit those sort of "office" type of lady.

&i can't imagine being stucked in a place for like 8-5 or even 9-5.

Sometimes when i work hard for my studies,

i won't even know if i am working hard or not.

I'm not even clear if i'm ready for O's.

In fact, i think i am not working hard enough for myself.

I don't wanna end up crying with a half Olevel cert.

Cause it's useless if you didn't give in your effort.

My art. i did almost everything by myself.

I had some helps from my cliques. (:

I hope my efforts won't go down the drain just like that.

If i would get at least a B3 for art in O's.

i will be happy &glad alr.

Because i know my standard.

Will I get to go into the course i want next year?

Will regret for choosing the course?

Billions and trillions of things running through my mind right now.

But by the end of the day,

the biggest aim for me is that i'll own a shop.

I don't wanna say big words. So i think i'll start working hard by now.

you'll see a really nerd me from today onwards.

No longer shopaholic but a study nerd..

2009-04-01T18:33:00.000-07:00

The Final Showdown..

you'll never know how much joy i'd ytd.

Sports day. the last one ever.

All of us enjoyed ourselves ytd. (:

the cheers.. the photos taken..

The whole 3 sec 5 classes met outside Tp's east entrance.

Then.. We kind of made a grand entrance.

like olympic. we even had a sec 5 flag.

everyone was alr assembling at the running track.

just waiting for the morning assembly to start.

All eyes were on us at that time.

i even heard one sec 4 boy saying that we're very united. LOL!

Sports day ended at 11-12 liddat.

then yun and i went to have lunch at 800+coffeeshop.

Confessions of a shopaholic was next.

It was a great show. It made me reflected on myself.

Cause i've to admit, i am a shopaholic myself.

Ytd when i open my closet,

I realised i always buy things that i don't use it.

like some of the clothings, i only wore it like once or twice.

some haven't even wear.

i even found one flats from cotton on not worn yet.

like what they say in the movie,

ask yourself this question before you buy something.

"Do you need this?"

Totally agreeable!

wanna see the photos taken during sports day?

go to this website. (: i lazy to post all up here.

Cause there's 106 photos!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2006878&id=1257453159

LONG WORDY POST.

2009-03-30T18:52:00.000-07:00

OPTIONAL POST. read it if you want.

didn't attend school today.

because of food poisoning i guess.

Ytd's stomachache was the worst one ever.

The pain started while i was on my way to pray my dad &granddad.

yes &fyi, my dad has passed away like 10-11 years ago.

short sharp pain. till now, i didn't visit a doc.

Weak stomach i have.

I think tm's food court was part of the pain too.

i ate hokkien mee with my cousin.

&both of us had diarrhoea since ytd.

seeing egg now, makes me scared.

I went back to school for english sp just now.

Copied that example essay and teacher let us off alr.

Yun&lyn accompanied me by walking me to the busstop.

While walking, we saw one couple fighting.

It's the wife who was beating her husband.

She's pregnant herself and her husband was carrying a baby.

how dangerous. We even heard that super loud bang sound.

I think it's depression. |: makes me feel not getting pregnant. LOL.

Later meeting yun at 10pm to collect class tee.

&head back home again.

i know it's a long post.

it's because i've no time to blog. (:

Saw stella on saturday while working,

Afiq at inter and took bus with him.

&tmr's SPORTS DAY!

it's the day, i've been waiting for so long!

That's all.

goodbye humans!

2009-03-25T19:00:00.000-07:00

Back from a small break.

School reopened for the third day alr.

Everyday going to school is like chasing after teacher's foot step.

teachers are teaching damn fast these days.

unlike in the past, you still can get to like slack &all.

My venice chapter for ss, was totally a blank for me.

If you didn't go to school for just a freaking day,

you'll miss alot.

School had arranged us to go for that one day poly experience thingy.

Yun & i will be attending design course.

but i'll go for 5 days, which means i'll miss study prog in school.

that event will be held only on june.

It also means that i'll be extremely busy until i'm done with Olevels.

It is equivalent to no life.

What to do.. this is what an Olevel student's life should have.

Everyday will be filled with tuitions and study programmes.

never mind. every good thing will have a price to pay.

No pain, no gain. work hard everyone.

I'm gonna prove to THAT "FRIEND" of mine that i can do it,

even w/o his fucking comment.

till then... GOODBYE.

2009-03-21T22:32:00.000-07:00

Say Goodbye!

it is regarding my hair.

say goodbye to my long hair.

although it's not like i'm cutting a very super short hair. (:

just cutting it 3-4inch. LOL.

have been working these days. at teoheng.

Saw a number of familiar faces.

including one of my school teacher. LOL

I'm going out tmr.

&school's gonna reopen in like less than two days.

IT'S JUST A BREAK PEOPLE!

I kept repeating that, whenever people ask me if it's holiday now.

anw, i'm leading a happy life now.

Thank god.

2009-03-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

Past Few Days..

It'd been quite a busy week for me.

Ever since the starting of the holidays!

last saturday,

if you'd read my cliques's blog,

you'll know that we went to newton mrt just for our cip.

which is FLAG DAY.

in another words, Ask for money. LOL!

the tins that belonged to us, were all filled with our coins.

OWN coins i repeat. See how generous we could be. (:

So after CIP, everyone went home.

At night, we went to have k-session.

there were xun, lau, yun and me.

Everyone sang sad love songs.

&then like on sunday, i forgot what i do alr.

&&on monday, went out. like super happy day for me.

tuesday, Which is ytd, i went to work.

TIRED, IRRITATED BY THOSE MICs.

What else more can i complain?

It's all because of money.

So like today, i went out with yun.

Was supposed to meet fiq,

but both yun and me can't wait for fiq,

so we just went on with eating and follow up by movie. (:

"Mall cop" is a nice show.

i think everyone should go catch it.

&i'm tired now. gonna go watch bai fen bai alr.

goodnight everybody!

owl joanne is going to sign off from here! :D

stay tuned for the next post.

photos will be uploaded soon when i'm free.

2009-03-13T20:38:00.000-07:00

So many things to blog about!

It seemed like it's been ten thousands of years since i'd post a thing.

Photos above was taken on thursday with felyn.

Went to pasir ris park to take photos for art.

&we had fun there. (:

Had plenty of problems happening lately.

Grandpa's mental senile is getting from bad to worse.

Everyday he've been asking me the same few questions.

"What is today's date? Why the phone cannot call? "

shan't talk about the sad stuff alr.

Anw, my common test overall results are out.

L1R4, Got all the alphabets from A-D. (:

Science is my lousiest subject but it is also the highest score,

i got from this time's common test.

Happy uh. 21 points for L1R4.

I'm almost done with my Olvl art final layout.

&i'll be going back to school for art too.

&&something good is coming up too! :D

I shall stop here.

so.. GOODBYE!

brother/mummy bought me the camera i wanted for a long time! :D

Happy me, happy life.

2009-03-04T17:49:00.000-08:00

Sick!

Didn't go to school today.

because i'm sick.

As what i know, alot of people i know are sick too.

everyone please kindly take care of your health.

went to meet lau and yun for lunch at tm.

&then came home.

fyi, i'm having a headache now,

&i'm feeling freezing cold alr.

i shall just post about my common test's score.

Combine science- C5.

Chinese-B4

English-don't know.

Maths- Fail. {expected}

Social studies-fail{expected}

I can only hope my maths will pass overall.

as my class work was done quite well.(:

English also.. pray hard that i'll pass.

if not, i'll be kick out of spf i guess.

Goodbye! heading back to my rest alr.

2009-03-02T22:12:00.000-08:00

Busy!

let's just say that it's because of the common test that makes me busy.

You wouldn't know how much effort i put in just this common test.

my efforts didn't go down the drain just like that. (:

Chemistry:15/25 {good enough for me alr}

Chinese:61.1/100{Improved}

Haven't get back my other subjects.

anw.. life has been busy and tiring.

I wanna go on a holiday, but i've got no time! ):

I hope i get to travel as often as i can after O's.

I've got a couple of stuff in my list not being stroke off yet.

I hope i've alot alot &alot of money.

so that i can get all the stuff i want.

God bless me for my art.

2009-02-23T21:29:00.000-08:00

read felyn's blog for more information.

gotta go back to my planet alr.

&GOODBYE! :D

Many many photos. you want, you see. you don't want, then close.

2009-02-23T21:00:00.000-08:00